Biggest Loser?

Do you watch the show Biggest Loser? I don't....or I didn't....until this season. Why? Good question. I confess, it's on at the same time as another one of my favorite shows, GLEE. So that might have a little something to do with it. But, I started watching this season. The drama (new trainers who's faces we still haven't seen? Oi! Immunity for 4 weeks? Wow!) was unexpected. But what snagged me was this: the first challenge of the season. They took the teams and put them each on a treadmill. Together, as a "couple team", they had to complete a 5K. Some of these guys weren't training for anything beyond getting up from the couch to get more food or go to the bathroom. They all weigh 200+ lbs...one guy is like 500 lbs or something. It's amazing. So in the teams, they got to take turns walking on the treadmill, trading off and on until they hit the 3.1 mile mark. I smugly sat there watching this and remembering when I thought 5K was impossible..and feeling fairly confident that I would be able to complete this task WAY faster then the teams could. As I watched, I became more and more alarmed. The fastest team finished in just over 40 minutes. What? How could this be? I run my 5K in 38 minutes...and that's after 6 weeks of training! I was only 2 minutes faster. I was horrified. I haven't run in a while. I'm doing a lot of other cardio but running has sort of fallen off the list. I did a mental check: I weigh less. I was "training" for a while to run a half marathon. I'm pretty active. Determined that there must be a mistake, I laced on my tennis shoes and walked over to our club house fitness room...and ran a 5K. In 37 minutes. I should feel good about this, rigth? So, why do I still feel defeated? I mean, I can run a 5K now without just the thought of it elevating my heart rate. I can't get past it. BUT maybe I don't want too...because since that day (2 weeks ago) I have been focused on my health in a way that I haven't before. My workouts are stronger and harder. I've added a day of running back into my cardio routine (Fridays, to be exact). I've added weights and strength training. I'm paying attention to the number of calories I eat. (By the way, if you want a great website, try sparkpeople.com for an easy way to track not only calories, but fat, protein, whatever you want really...and your exercise. There is also a community room where you can chat with others if that's your thing.) Has this worked? Well...remember back when I said that it takes 12 weeks to see a difference, according to SOME trainers? Well, it's been about 12 weeks since I said that, and guess what? My "skinny" jeans are now my "comfy" jeans. And before too long, I think they will be my "fat" jeans. Do I weigh less? I don't know. And I can't lie and say I don't care. But I don't want to get on the scale and have the number not match the way I feel. Is that crazy? Maybe. But, I'm thinking I might be on my way to being the biggest loser I know. And I'm okay with that. By the way, I've never trained with Jillian Michaels and don't think I ever will, but when I feel like I'm gonna die during a training, I picture her yelling at me. It works...for me.